Saturday 28 December 2013

Goodbye, 2013!

2013's been a bit of an up and down year for me, and after the amazing year I had in 2012, I'd be lying if I said this year was better. However, I thought I'd bite the bullet and share my 2013 story before the new year kicks in! Here's to a (hopefully) better year for everyone!

January

January marked the end of my 2 and a half year relationship, but was also the start of my second term at university (by far my favourite term there). It marked the start of many film nights with my friends, and plenty of girly nights out with a bunch of lovely ladies!




February

February was a good month as far as I can remember. It sparked the beginning of my relationship with one of my best friends at uni, and included failing myself at pancake day, date nights, nights out with my future (now current) housemates, breaking my camera, and a campus-wide power cut!




March
March was when me and the boy went official, I went home for Mother's Day, plenty more drunk nights out, one of my oldest friends visited me, and included my first real drunken experience (I'm talking not being able to walk properly, lying in a path for 10 minutes, throwing up on my boyfriend's floor, and of course, not being able to remember a thing!). 


April

April marked the end of the second term, where I was able to go home for an entire month, where I found a very questionable sign in the street, went on some much needed nights out with friends from home, and visited the boyfriend in Cambridgeshire. 



May & June

Not a whole lot happened in these two months. The final term as a fresher began and ended, with a whole load of exams and relationship stress along with it, and my uni's Summer Ball. Though once exams finished, we made a trip to the beach as a little celebration. However, if you've been a reader of mine for a while, you'll know that shortly after term ended, so did my relationship, yay! 





July & August

These two months are a bit of a blur. If I'm honest, my summer kind of sucked. I spent a lot of time moping around (which I don't recommend in the slightest!), visited my dad in Bolton for a week with my brother, and went out a couple of times with my friends. To be honest, I was just counting down the days til I could go back to uni!


September

This was the month I finally got to go back to uni! I moved into my new house with some lovely girls, went on many nights out, and maybe, possibly, rekindled a little something... 




October & November

Halloween (I was Catwoman!), Anything But Clothes night, cocktails, nights out and Paris (blog post to follow soon!) 








December

This final month marks the end of the year. My 20th birthday, completing any end of term assignments, spending time with my friends, going back home, and Christmas!



I hope you all enjoyed this little insight into my year! I'm pretty nosy myself, so these are exactly the types of post that I like to read! Anyway, I wish you all the best for 2014, and let's make it the best yet!

Tuesday 17 December 2013

Adulthood

Yesterday was my birthday. My 20th birthday. I can longer be classified as a teenager anymore, and to be perfectly honest, that scares me a lot!

It's never really occurred to me how much is going to change over the next few years, now that I've finally hit my twenties. I mean for a start, instead of spending my birthday at home, relaxing with friends and family, I spent the entire day writing essays. A joyous occasion, right?

I signed the contract last week for next year's house for uni, and not only had to pay the £150 admin fee, but in January, I'll have to pay a £400 deposit, too. Because a house of three girls are going to destroy the place, of course! I also had to endure a £104 phone bill, because I stupidly forgot to check whether I'd run over my call allowances. Money has never been a real issue for me until now. I'm not rich or anything, far from it, but I've always been extremely careful with my money and always budgeted perfectly. But it's like this term, everything's got the better of me, and I'm now a painstakingly £500 into my overdraft. Life sucks.

I'm hoping that this year will treat me well though. I'm hoping for a drastic change of luck, and that I'll manage to go back to being a total gem with my money! I blame Christmas, if I'm perfectly honest!

*sigh*

P.S. If you missed my last post, I'm a part of the 2014 Blogger Challenge, something I'm really looking forward to! You can expect the first post in the New Year!

Monday 9 December 2013

A Blogger's Battle

I haven't posted on here in over a month... There hasn't been anything in particular stopping me from writing. My uni deadlines have only just started approaching, and I haven't been inundated with work to do. I haven't been going out as much as I used to, so it's not like I haven't had the time to blog. In fact, many a day I find myself just sat in bed on my laptop, watching countless episodes of How I Met Your Mother until I get hungry and have to leave my sanctuary for food... Only to return 10 minutes later to repeat the cycle.

The truth is, I just haven't felt like writing much. I could write about the dramas within my friendship group over the last few months, but I've never felt like that's something I've wanted to share with the internet. Or I could write about the ongoing confusion I feel towards the male species (you all know I love a good man rant), but even that hasn't made me want to write. I've just found myself in a bit of a dead-end the last few months, and I'm not one to force myself to write if I don't feel up to it.

So when I saw Debi's post explaining that she would be taking part in the 2014 Blogger Challenge , I knew I wanted to take part. I joined one of the 396 girls that were added to Gaby's mailing list. Twice a month, we will receive an email with a topic that we should write about. Now I have absolutely NO idea what these topics could be, but I'm looking forward to finally having a bit of inspiration, and something to give me a step up to getting back into this blog. I really have missed this!

Friday 8 November 2013

Too personal.

I won’t lie to you; I’ve been completely neglecting my blog as of late. With uni work and life drama, I completely lost any motive to write for you guys. For that, I can only apologise.

I’ve had a lot going on for the last month or so, but I’ve felt that it’s all too personal to put in a blog post. I haven’t wanted to write about the things going on, because I don’t want to write about the people who are, or were once close to me. Just out of respect, I suppose.

I’ve let out a lot of emotions in this blog in the past; anger, upset, frustration, confusion… the list goes on! And I’ve never felt like I was sharing too much with you guys. I poured my heart out about guys and breakups and heartache… And I never once thought that it was too personal to put on the internet.

So why do I suddenly feel like I’m sharing too much? Blogging has always been an escapism for me; a place to write down whatever I’m feeling, as a sort of therapy, rather than keeping everything bottled up. But since I’ve been back at uni, I’ve become more of a closed book. I have all of these emotions and thoughts, but nowhere that I feel is appropriate to let them out.

When do things suddenly become too personal to share? What’s changed that’s made me feel like I can’t write about these situations?


If anyone else has ever felt this way/ currently feels like this, comment below. How did you overcome it?

Friday 18 October 2013

Second Chances.


I’m a firm believer that everybody deserves a second chance. Some people may disagree with that. In fact, I know a lot of people disagree. But the way I see it, is everybody makes mistakes. If they can correct those mistakes and prove themselves worthy, why not give them another chance? If they’ve learnt their lesson, surely you can forgive them?

I personally don’t see what the big issue is. Why people make it out to be so much different to give a guy (or girl) a second chance, in comparison to a friend. For example, if I had an argument with a friend, or they did something that upset me, everyone would tell me to forgive them and to give them another chance to prove that they’re a good friend. But when it’s, oh, I don’t know, an ex boyfriend… the matter changes completely.

Sure, there are exceptions. For example, if a guy cheated on me, I’d like to say I’d have the courage and willpower to not take him back. But then again, I can’t really comment on that issue, as it’s never actually happened to me. Although saying that, a friend of mine was put in a milder form of this situation, forgave him, and they’re one of the happiest couples I know. Everybody’s different.

For me, second chances are a way for people to prove that they still deserve a place in your life. I completely believe that they can work, and can make couples and friendships even stronger than before. With second chances, it allows both parties to correct anything that was wrong with the relationship in the first place, giving the opportunity for a better one to work out. 

Second chances aren’t always a bad thing. It’s third, fourth and fifth chances that I have no interest in. If you can’t correct your mistakes after the second chance, you sure as hell don’t deserve anymore.

Have any of you been in a situation where you’ve given someone a second chance? Did it work? Or if you haven’t, do you agree with them?

Thursday 10 October 2013

Changes

Over the last few weeks, I’ve been overcome with changes that have occurred in various aspects of my life. Although my work-load for uni hasn’t gone up by that much, my determination to complete my assignments to a high standard has. Last year, I didn’t really care that much about my work, purely because I knew I only needed 40% to pass the year, and whatever mark I did get didn’t actually count towards my final grade. Whereas now, I’m fully aware that whatever mark I get this year, will count as 40% of my overall degree. Now that’s scary. I’ve been a lot more motivated to complete my work to a high quality.

I’ve also been getting used to not living on campus. I moved into a lovely house with 5 amazing girls, about a 15-20 minute walk from campus. Although the distance isn’t an issue in the slightest, I’ve been adjusting to waking up earlier to allow time to walk to my lectures. It’s also been strange to not live a minute away from everyone else! Last year, it was so simple to visit friends, because the furthest anyone lived from me was 5 minutes! Now, it’s a 35 minute walk to see most of my friends, which is harder, but it also means I’ve been making more of an effort to make plans to see them, whereas before, I took for granted that they lived so close to me.

Compared to last year, I’ve rarely felt the need or want to go out at night. Whereas last year, I was out in the pub or clubs about 2-3 times a week, I’ve been perfectly happy to stay at home, having a film night with the girls, or going out for a meal  instead of spending the money on alcohol or taxi fares. Maybe it’s because the novelty of the fresher’s madness has worn off, and it’s a lot more effort to go out, rather than having everything available on campus. Whatever the case, I’ve found myself saving a lot more money!

The last change that’s affected me over the last few weeks, has been the return of a certain man in my life. Although I had no intention of anything like this happening, sometimes second chances aren’t the worst thing in the world, despite what other people might think. I’m not yet “in a relationship”, but this has been a huge change for me, considering how things have been for the last few months. Sometimes it’s just nice to have someone who you know you can talk to when you need them, and someone who’s there to give a cuddle when you’re feeling like shit.


Has anything changed for you recently?  For the better or for worse?

Sunday 6 October 2013

Information Overload.

I was watching my daily dose of YouTube last night, when I came across this video by Carrie Hope Fletcher, which for some reason, made me realise how much I’ve been neglecting my blog lately!

I began my second year of university last week, and on top of that, have had a really hectic 3 weeks of drama and confusion which I shall leave for another post! To ease myself back into the swing of things, I thought I’d do Carrie’s new tag video, but in the form of a blog post! Cheating, I know, but never mind, ey!

1)   What are you wearing?

A men’s Marvel shirt & leggings!

2)    Ever been in love?

Twice, but they were both very different kinds of love.

3)    Ever had a terrible break up?

Not really, but the feelings afterwards were awful!

4)    How tall are you?

5”7

5)    How much do you weigh?

I’m not sure exactly, but I know I’m just about in the underweight bracket, unfortunaltely!

6)    Any tattoos?

Nope, but I hope to get one soon!

7)    Any piercings?

My ears and belly buton!

8)    OTP?

Zalfie!

9)    Favourite show?

Breaking Bad!

10) Favourite bands?

McFly, Bastille & The Vamps.

11) Something you miss?

How simple things were this time last year!

12) Favourite song?

The Heart Never Lies – McFly

13) How old are you?

Almost 20! :’(

14) Zodiac sign?

Sagittarius.

15) Quality you look for in a partner?

Someone who doesn’t take life too seriously.

16) Favourite quote?

“Take these broken wings and learn to fly” – The Beatles.

17) Favourite actor?

Surprisingly, for a film student, I don’t actually have a favourite actor!

18) Favourite colour?

Mint green.

19) Loud music or soft?

Soft.

20) Where do you go when you’re sad?

For a walk somewhere.

21) How long does it take you to shower?

10-15 minutes.

22) How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?

30 minutes.

23) Ever been in a physical fight?

No way!

24) Turn on?

When you can see how much you mean to someone else.

25) Turn off?

Selfishness.

26) The reason I joined YouTube (or in the case, started a blog!)

I wanted a place where I could vent about everything going on in my life.

27) Fears?

Birds and loneliness.

28) Last thing that made you cry?

Men.

29) Last time you said you loved someone?

Yesterday.

30) Meaning behing your YouTube/blog name?

I write down my confessions, and I’m from Essex!

31) Last book you read?

The Green Mile by Stephen King.

32) The book you’re currently reading?

The Shining by Stephen King!

33) Last show you watched?

The IT Crowd.

34) Last person you talked to?

My housemate, Kirstie!

35) The relationship between you and the last person you texted?

My best friend.

36) Favourite food?

Chinese takeaway.

37) Place you want to visit?

Paris & New York.

38) Last place you were?

My bedroom.

39) Do you have a crush?

Yes.

40) Last time you kissed someone?

Yesterday.

41) Last time you were insulted?

Jokingly, yesterday.

42) Favourite flavour of sweet?

Strawberry.

43) What instruments do you play?

Unfortunately, none!

44)  Favourite piece of jewellery?

A locket necklace my mum got for my 18th birthday.

45) Last sport you played?

Rounders.

46) Last song you sang?

Can We Dance by The Vamps.

47) Favourite chat up line?

“I lost my phone number, can I borrow yours?”

48) Have you ever used it?

Of course not!

49) Last time you hung out with anyone?

Yesterday.

50) Who should answer these questions next?

Anyone who wants to!


Comment below with a link to your blog if you decide to do it! Hope you enjoyed!